One by One...

Music: Enya (mix CD)

I'm talking to Chris right now via IM. Thought I'd let you all know that...

So, I've been thinking over my current state of mind and how damn fucked up I've been. I'm still not sure what the answer is, but it's probably something I don't want to deal with, like having a bigger social life (I have enough to get by, in my opinion) or even a relationship (rolls eyes)...
Though, with regards to the relationship thing, I have a few points laid out, in no particular order:

~ I'm not what guys today are looking for in any way.
~ I'm too busy.
~ I don't want to be distracted.
~ I don't want to waste time on something that won't be worthwhile or last a decent time.
~ I don't want to feel like an obligation or anything like that to someone else - at the same time, I don't want to always be thinking about him, or have to feel like he's an obligation. Obligation is a bad word, but it's the only one I could think of.

Okay, I'm tired; I was going to post more, but that'll have to wait.