Slow Update
Music: Celtic Woman (PBS Special)
Yeah, I know I haven't updated in awhile but life has been so slow and blah that there's not much worth telling. The last entry is a bit unorganized, but oh well. I've seen the last Star Wars three times now and enjoyed each time. I'm just waiting for War of the Worlds to come out - looks to be great.
Jordan is dating Meranda (we all knew that was coming one way or another; I mean, come on, just do it.) but I'm confused with whether or not he wants to keep fucking or not. Either way, I don't really care, but a solid answer would be nice so the tension doesn't get unbearable and I can continue to get used to a life of celibacy and single-ness. It's for the best, so I'm justified in my cause, even though a quickie might actually be fun.
In the world of my room remodeling, all the wallpaper that's not behind the bed or bookcase is gone and I'm now awaiting everything else to happen...I can say I don't think I've ever seen my room so empty.
Unemployment sucks. I've applied to 11 places now and I'm getting so desperate that I think I'll just try @ fast food and break my rules. Wah!!
So, in general, I'm so frustrated and depressed. I really miss L.A. so much right now and the life of school. Life here just isn't for me, so I'll be so glad when I can go to Idyllwild.
In music terms, I've had 2 lessons w/ Gretchen and have set them up. Now, dammit, if I could just find a place to practice...like I said, life just sucks here for me. I've GOT to practice-the break is nice, but I'm so freakin' bored and need to work. I think I'm just going to use the TDS outpost thing in Bell Oak, as the advantages are that dad can let me in, it's got AC, is completely concrete, and, hopefully, no one will bug me...I can't stand being under the microscope and the constant noise that is home...no offense to the 'rents, but I'm just not up for all the noise, unorganization, and lack of motivation. I know there are other factors that filter in, but still, grrr...frustrated, depressed.
I talked to Doug about a week or so ago and I just feel like everytime I talk to him I'm just rambling and making no sense, like some teenybopper w/ a stupid, schoolboy crush. I'd love to take him to Cedar Point - I found great prices on tickets @ Meijer's and Dad said that a train ticket to E. Lansing is $70...not bad...however, it's his parents' decision and I somehow feel that it would be awkward to have him here @ home. I also sometimes feel that I'm the one who is more into our friendship...
I went down to GSP this last Thursday and had a great time - now, as an adult, I really was able to appreciate the place so much more.
Not much else to tell, except that I feel like I keep running into dead ends everywhere and dammit, it's fucking frustrating and I just wish life would just go my way for once. I've gained a few pounds and being home doesn't help that - AHHHHH! I swear, I'm going to fucking go nuts if I don't get some excitement and normalcy in my life. I hate the fucking T.V. Long life Bach, Beethoven, and the finer life. I don't think I'll ever own one someday-seriously- I get my news online and don't really watch anything - I can watch DVD's on my computer.
Yeah, I know I haven't updated in awhile but life has been so slow and blah that there's not much worth telling. The last entry is a bit unorganized, but oh well. I've seen the last Star Wars three times now and enjoyed each time. I'm just waiting for War of the Worlds to come out - looks to be great.
Jordan is dating Meranda (we all knew that was coming one way or another; I mean, come on, just do it.) but I'm confused with whether or not he wants to keep fucking or not. Either way, I don't really care, but a solid answer would be nice so the tension doesn't get unbearable and I can continue to get used to a life of celibacy and single-ness. It's for the best, so I'm justified in my cause, even though a quickie might actually be fun.
In the world of my room remodeling, all the wallpaper that's not behind the bed or bookcase is gone and I'm now awaiting everything else to happen...I can say I don't think I've ever seen my room so empty.
Unemployment sucks. I've applied to 11 places now and I'm getting so desperate that I think I'll just try @ fast food and break my rules. Wah!!
So, in general, I'm so frustrated and depressed. I really miss L.A. so much right now and the life of school. Life here just isn't for me, so I'll be so glad when I can go to Idyllwild.
In music terms, I've had 2 lessons w/ Gretchen and have set them up. Now, dammit, if I could just find a place to practice...like I said, life just sucks here for me. I've GOT to practice-the break is nice, but I'm so freakin' bored and need to work. I think I'm just going to use the TDS outpost thing in Bell Oak, as the advantages are that dad can let me in, it's got AC, is completely concrete, and, hopefully, no one will bug me...I can't stand being under the microscope and the constant noise that is home...no offense to the 'rents, but I'm just not up for all the noise, unorganization, and lack of motivation. I know there are other factors that filter in, but still, grrr...frustrated, depressed.
I talked to Doug about a week or so ago and I just feel like everytime I talk to him I'm just rambling and making no sense, like some teenybopper w/ a stupid, schoolboy crush. I'd love to take him to Cedar Point - I found great prices on tickets @ Meijer's and Dad said that a train ticket to E. Lansing is $70...not bad...however, it's his parents' decision and I somehow feel that it would be awkward to have him here @ home. I also sometimes feel that I'm the one who is more into our friendship...
I went down to GSP this last Thursday and had a great time - now, as an adult, I really was able to appreciate the place so much more.
Not much else to tell, except that I feel like I keep running into dead ends everywhere and dammit, it's fucking frustrating and I just wish life would just go my way for once. I've gained a few pounds and being home doesn't help that - AHHHHH! I swear, I'm going to fucking go nuts if I don't get some excitement and normalcy in my life. I hate the fucking T.V. Long life Bach, Beethoven, and the finer life. I don't think I'll ever own one someday-seriously- I get my news online and don't really watch anything - I can watch DVD's on my computer.
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