And the beat goes on...

Not too much going on - here's what I've been up to lately:

~ Going to Allan's concerts
~ Going to everyone's recitals
~ Taking Thursday nights off to go have some social time @ the art openings
~ I talked to Julie about beta blockers and then set up an appt. w/ a counselor in student affairs to talk about it.
~ Ordered some more reed thread, Chudnow staples, music, and my theory text. They should all be here, hopefully, tomorrow or Tuesday.
~ After much thought, I've decided to go home for spring break, like last year. I'm still debating whether or not to come out then, however...I do know I have support, so that's a good thing, but it doesn't make the fact of the matter any easier...aaaaahhhhh!!
~ I, a gay man, went up a vagina this last Thursday, w/ both Pablo and Blake at the same time...okay, before you all start freakin' out, there was an art exhibit in the Stevenson Blanche gallery called, "The Womb" and, sure enough, that's exactly what it was. It reminded me of the childhood spent making forts with blankets and chairs in the living room, in a way, as well as camping. I can't really describe it, as I think it's one of those moments where one just had to be there to get the full impact. However, I can say that I've now been up a vagina...
~ Wondering if keeping certain friendships alive is pointless since we're going in different directions and aren't geographically close (within a reasonable hangout distance) no matter where I am.
~ I want to try playing some bass oboe and/or heckelphone.


This stuff isn't so new:
~ Still Pondering my existence
~ Still wishing I could decide what I really want to do w/ my musical life and then have the love, drive, and determination to get through school w/ as good of an education/experiences I can get and then make my career (whatever it is) happen.
~ Still wondering why I can look @ a walking wet dream of a guy and totally want to jump him, but then suddenly realize sex is the last thing on my mind, even though I want it with him...

So, as one can see, there ARE some new things in my life...they're small, but still new. And, oh my gosh, I can't believe I forgot to say it back when...I DID see "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire." My complaints are: the score (it was acceptable and worked, but why couldn't they have gotten someone who would've respected John Williams' work and integrated it more? ) and the fact that these last 2 movies have had different directors and such - why can't they just keep someone? Also, they left out some things, as usual, so I don't see why they can't make a 3 hour movie like Peter Jackson has...I mean, come on...other than that, it was great, as we saw it in IMAX.