A VERY brief overview...

Music: Josh Groban's new album, "Awake"

A list of good things that have happened this term, so far:

~ 3 jobs that are all music related.
~ Improved fashion
~ A social life
~ Spending a lot of quality time w/ Adam
~ Working on my studio project
~ New music from my favorite artists
~ Meeting Josh Groban
~ Some great concerts
~ Learning my way around L.A.
~ Learning that Elliot Carter's music isn't as bad as I thought it was
~ Getting my recital date set
~ Finally being a decent reedmaker
~ Having a good-sized oboe studio
~ Erica's b-day celebration & the hot tub
~ Studying w/ Jeff and Kyle for the midterm
~ Taking interesting classes, despite the workload.
~ Having friends to talk to and trust.
~ Facebook
~ Thanxgiving day w/ Aunt Brenda and Granny (only the time spent @ their house...)

A list of negatives:
~ A social life
~ Falling for a guy I can't have (Adam)
~ My current psychological condition...
~ My playing
~ My car
~ My current physical conditions, including those not obvious to others
~ Drama
~ Chris's bitchiness


I also miss my kitties and being home. However, I'm not sure if I can handle anything anymore...I'm ready to freak for no reason - in short, I've become what I've tried so hard to not become...narcissistic, a drama queen, lazy, fat, cold, intolerant, etc. I don't know what to do anymore or what I want. A good cry session on the beach would be great, if I could remember how it feels to cry and really let go - Tigger's death was different.

But, enough sunshine on a perfectly cool, overcast day...

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