Eh? Oy. Fuck.

I'm really confused. I'm STILL feeling exhausted from (I think) last week - band camp CAN'T have made me THAT tired that I still feel out of it, tired, moody, etc. into the next week! Can it? I really don't want to end up like my mother, where I do something and then am out of commission for a ridiculous amount of time thereafter - I'm way too young for that - that saying, "I'll sleep when I'm dead" is beginning to make much more sense these days...I mean, I slept in the van THE WHOLE WAY TO WORK this morning...

There's a new restaurant in town I want to try, over on Lake Lansing/Hagadorn, called "Copper." It looks quite interesting, menu-wise, and the prices don't look too extravagant, but I'll try it for lunch first, one of these days. Perhaps one of my fabulous girls would like to join me...

So, just organize my thoughts: I have my recital invites ready to go - just need to make a mailing list and get them out. I have to finish my program (waiting for program notes from Kate) and get that printed. I also need to get some candid photos @ next rehearsal for the poster and then get that going. Things seem to be in good shape as far as promo stuff is concerned, and I like the fact that I don't think (crossing fingers/knock on wood) that I'll be running around all nutso trying to put up posters and such. I think the extra little invite things can double as postcard type things (just on regular paper, I guess) that I can put at the band counter and upstairs @ work. Hopefully. God forbid I promote something NOT related to work. I'm hoping for a decent audience...maybe 50? I think we're going to sound great, so it would be a shame to not have anyone.

Ack...I have to finish our quintet promo stuff, too...photos and Joe's bio.

Been attempting to practice my audition excerpts for school. I like them all except for the damn Brahms ones. I. Don't. Like. Brahms. I think his only hummable, memorable melodies were the oboe solo from the violin concerto and the waltz in Ab for piano that sounds sorta like the lullaby. Other than that...it's just...notes and sound. I'm not sure why people like his stuff so much. For as much as I bitch about J.S. Bach, at least he has TONS of memorable melodies and was a counterpuntal genius. I don't see/hear any of that in Brahms. For someone who wanted to be the next Beethoven or whatever, he falls short, in my opinion. So, anyway, back to excerpts. I just wish they were as easy to play alone as they are as in the orchestra. Sigh. Oy. Suck it up.

Depression sucks. Ever since band camp ended, I've felt really depressed - but I notice this after every concert or musical event I participate in. I've been in this funk that seems to be getting worse as time progresses. Thank God for my girls that kept me sane and reassured last week. I know things are going to be much better @ school.