I would just like, for once, to have an audition go really well. One where I feel good, start to finish. One where I don't want to run off stage and cry after the first phrase of the Mozart concerto. Gah. As far as preparation, I feel like I get no where when I prepare well or when I don't. I'm so sick of auditions, excerpts, and the whole traditional oboe world right now. Why can't we just play the damn horn. Maybe I shouldn't be in school - maybe I'm meant to be a community player the rest of my life...who gets occasional gigs. Someone who has a day job...ick.

Gah. FML.